Saturday, January 8, 2011

i'm sad/pissed...

that jayson is gone and i don't get to hug/kiss/touch/smell/sit next to him until july or august

that my brother is out of prison and won't get to see him until who knows when

at the possiblity that my brother may very well end up in prison again

that my brother's mental health isn't stable and nothing can/will be done about it

that my best friend, jayson, isn't around until july or august

that this squadron sent martin in place of a staff sgt that is getting to stay home because he and his wife are having their 3rd, yes 3rd baby while martin will miss the birth of his first baby

that i don't have caroline next door

that i don't have katie down the hill and across the street

that the only thing to do here is go barhopping and i don't do that or drink and won't start either

that lucian is missing his wonderful daddy and wants to go up in the airplane with daddy

that the snow decided to come AFTER jayson left, he is the one that likes it and doesn't mind shoveling it

that the stupid wind knocked down our fence TWICE and now i have to put the dogs on a chain & stake combo to go outside because the fence blew over two days before jayson left

that jayson is gone until right before or right after my bday

i don't get to kiss jayson for 6.5 months or a little longer

that our house here is so damn small

that i'm so sad and pissed

1 comment:

  1. And you just feel sad/pissed for as long as you want :) I'm feeling it right along with ya sister!! Miss you and wish that Japan was just a few hour drive away!

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